i can't believe this life

i dunno exactly what i'm feeling right now. i'm sooper dooper glad that the 2nd sem of our first year in college is finally OVER, and that i passed my subjects (and hallelujah, i survived math 100!). it's good that i'm actually moving on -- moving closer to my goal of being in med school that is. i feel happy with life, but part of me is somehow getting fed up. i thought this summer's going to be quite stress-free, but heck i was so wrong. PI 100 (about the life of jose rizal) is just sooo demanding. i can't explain it, really. it's just... unfair. our block might not even have our "vacation" after the summer classes. it's too much of a burden. and what makes me sad is the fact that our block nearly got "divided" just because of some misunderstanding brought about by that uber demanding subject. = (

i dunno. i just don't know how i'm supposed to feel... because as of the moment, i am just... so disturbed. and i can't believe this, for my life's never been this crazy.